THE LIGHT
My best work is saved for Literary Journal submissions, but please enjoy my archive of secondary poems that never quite made the cut.
2024
Let's Kill The Dinosaurs
I feel you approaching.
Your vibration sends shockwaves
through the universe.
Icey shards of shattered men
are diminished to dust in your wake,
and without a second glance,
they slip off your shoulders,
never to be remembered,
forever floating in a vat of darkness.
Every inch closer
threatens my atmosphere,
to breach my way of life.
My instinct is to brace for impact,
go fetal
hope for a near miss,
yet my pulse leaps feverishly through my skin,
and my sky’s partway
as I invite a collision course
for lust and desire,
and certain death.
You’re inescapable.
and I realize it’ll soon start again,
the birth of another decade
the scorching of my entire surface
and the draining of every last resource,
just like last time.
Even if it kills me,
I yearn for one more moment with you.
I wouldn’t have it any other way.
So, let’s kill the dinosaurs.
©2024 Chris Sadhill
the astronaut
His eyes
explored the void
frantically,
and his hands clawed at the emptiness
for meaning and purpose,
yet he grasped nothing.
he catapulted
through the universe
at the speed of light
without coordinates
to a destination unknown.
He was a castaway
naked and afraid.
time was his space ship.
©2024 Chris Sadhill
Natural State
Endless forest in a natural state,
we douse the flame.
Too often we intervene
Conserving and preserving without foresight, but
burning is crucial, and historic.
We must watch the flames eat away the past
and clear the deadfall for new growth.
So, let it burn.
and save the water for drinking.
©2024 Chris Sadhill
Perpetual Carpool
The radio
plays the same song as yesterday,
as the day before,
and the day before that.
I’m waterboarded by a tsunami
over and over
because I refuse to forget
what you sound like,
and I’ll continue to suffocate without you,
and I’ll continue to listen to my favorite song.
©2024 Chris Sadhill
the Eastern Star
The eastern star rises
and kisses the unattainable foothills.
A spring flower breaches permafrost
and defies its winter coffin.
A butterfly straddles a tulip
and its color grows more vibrant.
A new day,
A new growth,
A new beauty.
and A new you.
©2024 Chris Sadhill
2023
Post-It-Note for the Queen
I love you,
more than all the words that I could ever arrange when describing my feelings for you.
I write you,
with my own red ink, into a boundless book, where every page is a new canvas for an unexplored memory that is soon to be written, and my heart is your bookmark.
I offer you,
a speechless love, where every glance I steal, is a syllable with a poetic intonation, and every touch we make is a sentence that runs on infinitely.
I whisper,
every open wound, my biggest fears, and reveal my deepest truths into your precious ear while you are sound asleep, living in another world, where I hope, you don't forget to wear your crown.
©2023 Chris Sadhill
The Coal Miner
At first you were reluctant.
In fact, you turned away.
Perhaps it was too dark inside,
or too dangerous for you to stay.
But your urge to find a diamond,
among the heaping piles of coal,
overcame your impulses to avert the dangers,
and so, you entered bravely with a pick axe, and a hoe.
You dug it deep, and trenched a path,
to the center of that pitch-black mine.
And when you finally struck a bleeding heart,
You had met me for the first time.
“Hello.” I echoed out of the darkness to you,
reaching out my trembling hand.
You said “Hey” in return, and introduced yourself.
Now our conversation has yet to end.
You shined my heart, polished my soul,
and smoothed down the jagged bits of remaining coal.
You formed and formed me, then sharpened my lines,
and turned me from a crumbled stone, into one that brilliantly shines.
Now, I grab my tools with no exit or return time,
to step deep inside your shaft-tunneled mine.
I begin to dig down, blazing inside you a new ditch,
With no intentions to stop, until I too, strike it rich.
©2023 Chris Sadhill
Slante for the Raven
The electric sizzle of thy emerald skies,
reminds me of her tonight.
So, I drink to see her yet again,
a brush with death I invite.
If I may, and if I will,
close that fatal deal.
With her again I shall promptly be.
The aurora of her eyes, I steal.
©2023 Chris Sadhill
To Be Heard
The man without a voice, obtains one.
A life full of deaf ears,
never being listened to.
He lived on the fringe;
Out of their trash-bins,
feeding off the scraps they shoved into him,
like he was a baby bird,
yet he was hungry,
and ate any piece of meat,
regardless of its authenticity,
He was either stuck in the nest until he died,
or forced to jump out.
A spiral straight to the bottom,
he fell flat, but now had a story to tell.
His written words carefully chosen,
inked into a font that sets the mood,
and placed on uniformed paper as if he’s in control,
as if there is order in his life,
as if he is preparing his last will and testament.
The importance of detail is crucial, this may be his only shot.
He layers his compilation like a baker building a cake.
A life full of stories, Oven set to 450.
A speechless assault on society,
An examination of the human soul,
an autopsy of himself.
An opportunity to entertain, to uplift,
to speak from the heart without ever having to say a word in front of a crowd,
because people scare him;
Trust doesn’t come easy anymore.
He unclogs his arteries,
filled of repressed suffering and inflicted pain,
then soaks the pages with new blood.
Sealed and bound into a time-capsule,
he then shares with the world.
He gains a watchful eye, attached to a mind, attached to thoughts,
and can now send sparks of inspiration directly into their souls.
An electric connection of black and white;
A static symphony of contrast.
The simplicity in his words forms a complex message,
asking questions and demanding answers.
and a man who never had a voice,
now sends shockwaves around the world.
to be heard.
©2023 Chris Sadhill
There's No Need to Go Any Further
I am not what you label me to be,
though you feel you are employed to tell me what you think, what you feel, or how I can be a better use to society.
What you fail to realize is that I’ve already heard those words, from myself, from the all too regular passersby on the street.
But that’s not what defines me.
There’s no need to go any further, because at the end of the day,
I determine what definition I want my name to read.
It’s all too easy to say just leave,
but have you felt the iron fist of love hit you on the cheek?
Have you put in the time to heal your wounds, yet remain loyal to your commitment to the one you vowed you’d never leave?
It’s harder than you think,
especially when you stand by hoping for it to change.
It’s harder than you think.
There’s no need to go any further, as I contain more strength and fortitude in my swollen eye than you produce in fifty-two weeks.
My shortened hair is like a beacon to you.
It’s been ten years since we last shared words, yet here you are with your keystrokes of sorrow as if you’ve been here indefinitely.
There’s no hand to hold or a warm embracing squeeze,
just the coldness of kind words shared digitally.
I am more than the diagnosis I received.
There’s no need to go any further, as every remaining hair on my head contains an accomplishment, I set out to achieve, or a memory I had once created,
or a life I helped inspire to believe.
My thickened armor is not here by choice, contrary to belief.
It’s not a product of laziness or lack of responsibility,
yet you don't hear my explanation and continue to chisel away my exterior with your daggers and blades, attempting to form what you deem a perfect human being.
My armor exists, in part, as a symbiotic response to your misguided needs;
A habitual overdose to fill the void, to cover the pain, and to ignore the hate.
My Armor Protects me.
There’s no need to go any further, as I am more than just on the surface or skin deep.
My whole body is molded with perseverance and shaped with the idea that one day
I will be happy. I am happy.
I am not a freak.
Look at you, looking at me.
It seems you are vicariously living in my shoes trying to man the helm,
when it's you who's lost at sea.
I am not a label, a bruise, an illness, or what I eat.
Despite what society deems to be proper, at the end of the day, I am Unique.
There is no difference between you and I. We just view things through a different set of eyes.
There's no need to go any further.
© 2023 Chris Sadhill
Swimming Lessons
Money doesn’t make the man,
his word does,
but loose lips grow quiet
in dark alleys,
not Nasdaq floors,
so, any decent man
would be detoured
from doing the right thing,
especially one with
mouths to fill
and a roof to keep.
I hang my head low
watching the ground move
beneath me as I walk home.
My pride and ego
both cleansed by the
emptiness of the morning,
but it’s within the shadows that I blend in.
I wear the black for them.
Upon my broken back
they eat their breakfast,
and wash it all down
with discounted milk
and cartoon giggles,
using my stained shirts as napkins.
I don’t care
because as long as they’re full,
they sleep well,
and make it to the bus on time
I am doing something right.
God knows there Ain’t much
I’ve gotten right,
but I’ve never begged, borrowed,
or cheated to survive.
Some do
and some win,
but most pay the price.
Living among the filth
keeps you true,
and most of the time
the truth is all you have—
And being quiet
adds another box on that calendar
to be Ex’d
filling you with the hope
that you’d be lucky enough
to find a way out
before it’s too late.
Even if all the riches
filled every ocean,
today’s children would drown
trying to swim them
because uncharted waters
and false horizons lead to certain death—
But wearing a suit of black
can be a heavy burden
dragging you under just the same,
especially as the riptide of the world
pulls at you.
So, why teach them how to wear that heavy suit?
Because I want them to struggle enough
to learn how to swim upstream,
and be learned enough to know
when the water’s too rapid
to get out.
I want them to hold their breaths knowing
that air will eventually come back
and they will resurface
because every night
they watched their dad disappear into the shadows
always bringing the sunrise back with him.
I want them to think
if he did it
then they could too.
©2023 Chris Sadhill
the Eviction
Too many times
you’ve needed a place to crash,
and I said no,
but caved despite it.
This toxic love
is our perpetual demise,
our Tango de la Muerte.
Once inside
you smash up my walls
slash the chaise and pillows
then refuse to leave when asked.
Never again!
Your memories are on the lawn,
along with all the years of your shit.
And you're no longer my tenant
Effective Immediately.
©2023 Chris Sadhill
The Reader
Use your blade shaped with vowels,
to cut me deep through the vein.
Hang your noose made of verbs,
So, I may cross over that plane.
Kill me with your story,
Then bring me to life with your words.
Stitch me back up,
only to tear me apart from the herd.
Let me read one more saga,
and begin where I did start.
Let me feel what you felt,
When you wrote the pages from your heart.
©2023 Chris Sadhill
Where the Sun Doesn't Shine
Bury me
where the sun doesn’t shine
and lay me to rest
once more
under the old oak tree,
where we once
held hands,
where I
stole my first kiss,
and
where you
loved to read
to my illiterate brain
even though it never
made me smarter—
I always daydreamed
to your voice.
I always fell asleep
to your words.
I’ll gladly take root
in that tree,
for it holds
the only memories
of my life
that matter
and probably
the memories of
a few men before me.
It’ll just be me
and a couple of guys
reliving our best times
falling in love
forever.
© 2023 Chris Sadhill
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